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Then, what am I here for?

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You are here for the next step in your adventure.

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Feeling the music.

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Feeling the music?

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What adventure?

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I'm feeling it.

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I'm certain you know exactly what I mean by feeling it.

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You mean internally?

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I guess you could say like that, yes.

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And how do you do that?

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Well, let's see.

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As you know, our music goes as such.

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F, C, G, D, A, E, B.

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Remember?

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But that's not how it is in birds.

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Yes, we are in this only once.

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These letters obviously don't make just that one phrase.

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Of course, our learnings of the same letters

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can mean many different things.

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I just don't see how this relates me to feeling the music.

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Hold on, Aaron.

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Imagine we take these same letters

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and change its corresponding word.

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For example, say,

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and we are to change the phrase completely

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by the meaning of such people and letters.

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So far,

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it makes sense.

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Change the corresponding word

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to create a new note.

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But there are hundreds of thousands

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of words that start with F.

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Is it possible?

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Let's change the letters to a topic

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with actual meaning.

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F shall now mean fear.

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Fear?

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Fear?

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How did we go from joy-catcher values

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and movements of birds to fear?

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Are we crazy?

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These new words will describe

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how you will learn to feel the music.

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Okay, what about C?

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C will mean courage,

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as it is well known

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that the only way to help us feel

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is through courage.

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What about G?

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G describes grief.

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to the point where your ego

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will overtake courage.

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So, fear to courage to grief?

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Yes, that is correct.

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which in this case would mean?

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Close, dreams.

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A dream leads to dreams,

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most of the time impossible ones,

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but dreams nonetheless.

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I'm going to guess it.

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Aspiration?

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Correct. Now can you tell me why?

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excellence?

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most of the time dreams and aspirations

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don't always mean excellence.

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expectations, whether they are personal

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or of others.

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you have at least a word.

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B. What starts with E

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becomes after expectations.

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Lastly, expectations leads to bargaining.

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You will do anything in your power,

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sell everything you own,

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and change anything about you

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to meet these expectations.

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goes from fear

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to courage to grief

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to dreams to aspirations

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and finally to bargaining.

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That is correct.

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It is a cycle of desire,

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and it must be shown through the singing.

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A song with no emotion,

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no ups and downs,

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is not a song at all,

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but more of a charm.

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a song with emotion

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is a song worth singing

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and listening to.

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So, Aiden, I ask you,

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what have you learned in today's lesson?

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I've learned that singing

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goes into the cycle of desire.

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Thank you.

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It's been two years

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since Bobby's mother passed away.

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She was a good lady,

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and an even better mother,

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but a silly one, too.

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that got cut into his children.

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His father was different.

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but he supported the family

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in all the lessons.

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He was a good man.

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He was a good man.

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He was a good man.

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He supported the family

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in all the lessons, including me.

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This was my brother,

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Mr. Thomas.

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Bobby right now,

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because he passed away.

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Mr. Thomas.

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Hi, Mr. Langston.

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Thank you,

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I'm glad you're here.

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How was your day today?

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I was doing pretty good during the day.

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Bobby's getting number one in the district.

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Oh, that's great. I'm sure you can just win.

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I think it's only as good as a Superstar.

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Amazing, isn't it?

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Bobby's amazing.

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Well, yes, now,

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we've got some serious talking to do.

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Yes?

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But the game...

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Anything about that?

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Oh, I'm cool.

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what was his name again?

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Anthony?

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Anthony. And no, sadly,

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I was really hoping he'd be there.

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to the game, but apparently,

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his phone didn't even get it.

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How do you know his phone

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didn't get the message?

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He didn't say delivery.

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this time, he didn't answer it that night.

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I can always give his parents a call.

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Talk to them, it's beautiful.

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No, no, please don't.

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Then, he will know I really like him,

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and I just don't know if he's ready

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to take that next step.

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So, you think he's in a relationship

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with you and doesn't know about it?

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It will all work out in the end.

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pretty right.

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Don't worry.

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He's a nice kid, and funny too.

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It seems like he's always happy at school.

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as I can because, you know,

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but I still have my dumb days.

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He doesn't.

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Don't feel like you're nauseous yet, that isn't healthy.

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He just probably just doesn't have anything to be sad about.

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Everyone has something to be sad about.

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It's okay, he'll cheer me right up when I'm there.

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And if it's the off chance he did,

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I know you'll be right there to help him.

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That's right, I've always felt you're right.

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Thank you, but don't worry.

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No, no, wait.

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I may be in my fifties,

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but I'm no senior citizen yet.

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Awesome.

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Oh my god!

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I broke my phone today.

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There sure as hell was a reason for doing so,

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but

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that comes later in the story.

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After English class,

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I couldn't help but wonder what I was going to do

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for this assignment.

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Of course, at first it seemed obvious

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to me that I should do something funny.

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That's my day job, isn't it?

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To be the funny kid,

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to make others laugh

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whether he at or with me.

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the comedic theme was

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laughter is always the best medicine.

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Mr. Foxworth hit me.

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I want the skeletons in your closet

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to peek through the gap of society's doors.

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came clear to me. The divide between

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whether to take a minimalist and weak approach

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or a thoughtful, serious approach became wider.

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I dove into the depths of my mind and soul

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and did some deep thinking.

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None of the other students

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knew that I could be sad.

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Not ever.

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The truth is, it's all a mask.

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One thing a mask does best

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is cover scars.

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And, well, I've accumulated many scars

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across the years.

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My father abandoned me when I was three,

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only to be followed with my mother becoming alcoholic.

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I've always kind of been on my own.

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I usually spend most of my time

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in school or here,

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in my room, with nothing but

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silence and a mirror.

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Silence is dangerous.

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A mirror is vicious.

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well,

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that's what

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led to my phone breaking.

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I threw it at my mirror,

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which is now broken.

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Just perfect, right?

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A shattered beat-up mirror only to reflect

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a beat-up scarred image of yourself back at you.

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there are scars on my mirror.