0 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:11,000 I broke my phone today. That sure as hell was the reason for doing so. But, that comes 1 00:00:11,000 --> 00:00:16,000 later in the story. After English class, I couldn't help but wonder what I was going 2 00:00:16,000 --> 00:00:22,000 to do for this assignment. Of course, at first it seemed obvious to me that I should do something 3 00:00:22,000 --> 00:00:28,000 funny. That's my day job, isn't it? To be the funny kid? To make others laugh, whether 4 00:00:28,000 --> 00:00:35,000 he at or with me? So, my primary thought for something along the comedic theme was, laughter 5 00:00:35,000 --> 00:00:42,000 is always the best medicine. But then, Mr. Foxworth hit me. I want the skeletons in your 6 00:00:42,000 --> 00:00:47,000 closet to peek through the gap of society's door. And then, it suddenly became clear to 7 00:00:47,000 --> 00:00:51,000 me. The divide between whether to take a minimalist and weak approach or a thoughtful, serious 8 00:00:51,000 --> 00:00:57,000 approach became wider. And all feelings lead towards serious. So, that's what I did. I 9 00:00:57,000 --> 00:01:02,000 dove into the depths of my mind and soul and did some deep thinking. None of the other 10 00:01:02,000 --> 00:01:09,000 students knew that I could be sad. Not ever. The truth is, it's all a mask. One thing a 11 00:01:09,000 --> 00:01:16,000 mask does best is cover scars. And well, I've accumulated many scars across the years. My 12 00:01:16,000 --> 00:01:20,000 father abandoned me when I was three, only to be followed with my mother becoming an 13 00:01:20,000 --> 00:01:26,000 alcoholic. Since then, I've always kind of been on my own. I usually spend most of my 14 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:34,000 time in school or here in my room with nothing but silence and a mirror. Silence is dangerous. 15 00:01:34,000 --> 00:01:45,000 A mirror is vicious. The two together, well, that's what led to my bone breaking. I threw 16 00:01:45,000 --> 00:01:51,000 it at my mirror, which is now broken. Just perfect, right? A shattered beat up mirror 17 00:01:51,000 --> 00:01:56,000 only to reflect a shattered beat up scarred image of yourself back at you. Needless to 18 00:01:56,000 --> 00:01:59,000 say, there are scars on my mirror. 19 00:02:51,000 --> 00:02:55,000 I'm learning compound and sixth with the elections in the middle. In the non-middle, 20 00:02:55,000 --> 00:02:58,000 I'll switch first. Interesting. 21 00:03:22,000 --> 00:03:24,000 Sorry about that. 22 00:03:24,000 --> 00:03:26,000 Why weren't you wearing a shirt? 23 00:03:26,000 --> 00:03:30,000 I just got back from my class meet at Gilbert. I honestly thought that the apartment was 24 00:03:30,000 --> 00:03:35,000 empty, but when I switched in here, I thought I may as well ask if it's okay if I use the 25 00:03:35,000 --> 00:03:41,000 shower. I didn't want you to suddenly be like, my goodness gracious, why is the shower running? 26 00:03:41,000 --> 00:03:44,000 Well, perhaps you could have put a shirt on? 27 00:03:44,000 --> 00:03:45,000 Yeah, I know, I'm sorry. 28 00:03:45,000 --> 00:03:48,000 Accept his apology. 29 00:03:48,000 --> 00:03:51,000 As in, a recognition of a concept unreceived. 30 00:03:51,000 --> 00:03:53,000 Recibo los conceptos propios que recibí. 31 00:03:53,000 --> 00:03:54,000 Recibo... 32 00:03:54,000 --> 00:03:59,000 That is quite enough. I've got a chemistry test tomorrow, and I'm not 100% sure I am. 33 00:03:59,000 --> 00:04:07,000 Let me see. Ah, I only count on it. I remember this from two years ago. It's actually not 34 00:04:07,000 --> 00:04:12,000 that hard. It's more math than anything else, really. Just make sure that the letter is 35 00:04:12,000 --> 00:04:13,000 equal to zero. 36 00:04:13,000 --> 00:04:15,000 See, you have got this. 37 00:04:15,000 --> 00:04:19,000 I guess so. I'm just not 100% sure I'll get a 10. 38 00:04:19,000 --> 00:04:21,000 I see what you're missing. 39 00:04:21,000 --> 00:04:22,000 Which page? 40 00:04:22,000 --> 00:04:26,000 Oh, no, you're missing a little thing called self-confidence. 41 00:04:26,000 --> 00:04:27,000 Please. 42 00:04:27,000 --> 00:04:31,000 I am not kidding. Believing you can achieve your goals is half the battle. 43 00:04:31,000 --> 00:04:34,000 Believing won't give me the 4.5 GPA I need. 44 00:04:34,000 --> 00:04:38,000 No, but it will give you the potential to do so. If you don't have the potential, it 45 00:04:38,000 --> 00:04:40,000 will never happen. It's a battle. 46 00:04:40,000 --> 00:04:44,000 Fine then, Mr. Smart Senior. Tell me, how do I gain self-confidence? 47 00:04:44,000 --> 00:04:48,000 Think about it like this. When you are at the track meet, you want to look at the other 48 00:04:48,000 --> 00:04:53,000 competitors and say, look, I see that, and then it won't really matter what page. So 49 00:04:53,000 --> 00:04:57,000 how about something that is a little more just like this? What kind of music would you 50 00:04:57,000 --> 00:04:58,000 make? 51 00:04:58,000 --> 00:05:02,000 I might have to say orchestral music, because strings and tones move in a way that no kind 52 00:05:02,000 --> 00:05:06,000 of other music does. Plus, it's only sardine, you know, and that. 53 00:05:06,000 --> 00:05:07,000 Orchestra. 54 00:05:07,000 --> 00:05:08,000 Orchestra. 55 00:05:08,000 --> 00:05:09,000 Orchestra. 56 00:05:09,000 --> 00:05:10,000 Orchestra. 57 00:05:10,000 --> 00:05:11,000 Orchestra. 58 00:05:11,000 --> 00:05:13,000 The word is orchestra. 59 00:05:13,000 --> 00:05:14,000 Orchestra. 60 00:05:14,000 --> 00:05:15,000 Orchestra. 61 00:05:15,000 --> 00:05:19,000 Think about it this way. Who would you say is the most important part of the orchestra 62 00:05:19,000 --> 00:05:20,000 now? 63 00:05:20,000 --> 00:05:21,000 That's easy, the conductors. 64 00:05:21,000 --> 00:05:26,000 Of course, the conductor. Now, what exactly does the conductor do? 65 00:05:26,000 --> 00:05:31,000 The conductor takes control of the orchestra. They are the heart and the soul of the symphony. 66 00:05:31,000 --> 00:05:33,000 They take control by the power of their hands. 67 00:05:34,000 --> 00:05:38,000 Good. Now, here comes the part when I ask you the simple questions. Feel it in your 68 00:05:38,000 --> 00:05:40,000 legs. The conductor blocks the orchestra. 69 00:05:40,000 --> 00:05:43,000 Leads. The conductor leads the orchestra. 70 00:05:43,000 --> 00:05:47,000 Yes. Now, which way does the conductor face? 71 00:05:47,000 --> 00:05:52,000 That's easy. The conductor faces the musicians. That's the way they can see what the conductor 72 00:05:52,000 --> 00:05:53,000 is signaling. 73 00:05:53,000 --> 00:06:00,000 Yes. Now, Katie, you are a conductor, but you are facing the crowd. You have all the 74 00:06:01,000 --> 00:06:05,000 pieces together, the violins, the violas, the cellos, and basses, but you are just one 75 00:06:05,000 --> 00:06:12,000 step away. You need to take control and drive all the parts. Remember, in an orchestra, 76 00:06:12,000 --> 00:06:15,000 you must push them away from the crowd. 77 00:06:15,000 --> 00:06:16,000 Jackson. 78 00:06:16,000 --> 00:06:17,000 Yes, Katie? 79 00:06:17,000 --> 00:06:18,000 Thank you. 80 00:06:30,000 --> 00:06:41,000 I think I can do it. 81 00:06:51,000 --> 00:06:56,000 Ah, this English break is scaring me. I don't want to hear the orchestra. I need something 82 00:06:56,000 --> 00:06:57,000 with… 83 00:06:58,000 --> 00:06:59,000 Zack! 84 00:06:59,000 --> 00:07:00,000 Yes, Mom? 85 00:07:00,000 --> 00:07:01,000 Zack! 86 00:07:01,000 --> 00:07:02,000 Yes, Mom? 87 00:07:02,000 --> 00:07:07,000 Zack, if I have to call you one more time, I'm going out. 88 00:07:08,000 --> 00:07:10,000 You're right. 89 00:07:10,000 --> 00:07:11,000 Yes. 90 00:07:11,000 --> 00:07:13,000 I don't think you're going to make it. 91 00:07:13,000 --> 00:07:16,000 I think you should go with my friends and sit at the table. 92 00:07:16,000 --> 00:07:17,000 Okay. 93 00:07:17,000 --> 00:07:18,000 I need to break. 94 00:07:18,000 --> 00:07:19,000 Okay. 95 00:07:19,000 --> 00:07:23,000 Honey, Dad, Mom. 96 00:07:23,000 --> 00:07:24,000 Hey, Jack. 97 00:07:24,000 --> 00:07:26,000 Mom, are you okay? 98 00:07:26,000 --> 00:07:27,000 I'm fine. 99 00:07:27,000 --> 00:07:29,000 Why are you out in the cold? 100 00:07:29,000 --> 00:07:31,000 We're coming home someday. 101 00:07:31,000 --> 00:07:35,000 Honey, I wasn't cold. I just have to say I'm feeling so feverish I won't be able to 102 00:07:36,000 --> 00:07:38,000 I don't want to fight tonight. 103 00:07:38,000 --> 00:07:39,000 I'll tell you what. 104 00:07:39,000 --> 00:07:41,000 I was late and I'm leaving the room. 105 00:07:41,000 --> 00:07:43,000 You guys have the room together. 106 00:07:43,000 --> 00:07:44,000 I'm going to town. 107 00:07:44,000 --> 00:07:45,000 Alright. 108 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:46,000 Hey, Jack. 109 00:07:46,000 --> 00:07:48,000 Why don't you leave the room for us? 110 00:07:48,000 --> 00:07:50,000 Dad, I can't handle this. 111 00:07:50,000 --> 00:07:53,000 I know you can't handle this, but I wouldn't let myself forget you. 112 00:07:53,000 --> 00:07:54,000 What if… 113 00:07:54,000 --> 00:07:55,000 Please, Jack. 114 00:07:55,000 --> 00:07:56,000 Alright, Mom. 115 00:07:56,000 --> 00:07:57,000 I will go. 116 00:07:57,000 --> 00:07:58,000 Alright, Mom. 117 00:07:58,000 --> 00:07:59,000 Let's talk. 118 00:07:59,000 --> 00:08:00,000 Honey, I'm here. 119 00:08:00,000 --> 00:08:02,000 I'm coming home someday. 120 00:08:03,000 --> 00:08:04,000 Honey, I wasn't cold. 121 00:08:04,000 --> 00:08:05,000 I have to finish this homework. 122 00:08:05,000 --> 00:08:06,000 No big deal. 123 00:08:06,000 --> 00:08:07,000 No big deal? 124 00:08:07,000 --> 00:08:08,000 I have been home alone. 125 00:08:08,000 --> 00:08:09,000 I didn't know that. 126 00:08:11,000 --> 00:08:12,000 Look. 127 00:08:12,000 --> 00:08:13,000 I don't… 128 00:08:13,000 --> 00:08:15,000 All I'm saying is that we finished this homework. 129 00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:16,000 Let's go. 130 00:08:16,000 --> 00:08:17,000 I can't do this anymore, Carmen. 131 00:08:18,000 --> 00:08:20,000 I am tired of this, Carmen. 132 00:08:20,000 --> 00:08:22,000 It's always I, I, I with you. 133 00:08:22,000 --> 00:08:24,000 The word you make and it dies. 134 00:08:24,000 --> 00:08:26,000 And it depends what your I stands. 135 00:08:26,000 --> 00:08:29,000 So I asked you for the last time, what does your I stand? 136 00:08:29,000 --> 00:08:30,000 I… 137 00:08:30,000 --> 00:08:31,000 I… 138 00:08:31,000 --> 00:08:32,000 I don't stand with me anymore. 139 00:08:32,000 --> 00:08:34,000 Look, on our next time, you grow up. 140 00:08:34,000 --> 00:08:38,000 Mira, I have been with you, bought a drink and I drank it and you have to get a drink. 141 00:08:38,000 --> 00:08:40,000 You and me both know we are still in this. 142 00:08:40,000 --> 00:08:42,000 That kid means nothing to me. 143 00:08:44,000 --> 00:08:46,000 Look, because that is your child. 144 00:08:46,000 --> 00:08:47,000 Our child. 145 00:08:47,000 --> 00:08:48,000 And it's always, it's always embarrassing. 146 00:08:48,000 --> 00:08:50,000 I have known that for 15 years. 147 00:08:50,000 --> 00:08:54,000 For 15 years I have been raised and nurtured that boy that you call our child. 148 00:08:54,000 --> 00:08:57,000 And what I got in return, I have coming now and then. 149 00:08:57,000 --> 00:08:59,000 In these words of love, 150 00:09:00,000 --> 00:09:01,000 Thank you very much. 151 00:09:06,000 --> 00:09:07,000 I thank you, my child. 152 00:09:07,000 --> 00:09:08,000 I mean it. 153 00:09:08,000 --> 00:09:09,000 Hey, Charles. 154 00:09:09,000 --> 00:09:10,000 Brother, Papa. 155 00:09:10,000 --> 00:09:11,000 I love you. 156 00:09:11,000 --> 00:09:12,000 Okay, dad.