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I've been alone for as long as I can remember but since I was a little kid it was just me I used to

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believe that loneliness is a curse but I was wrong when your only real company is yourself you start

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to realize things you realize how fake these connections you used to long for are let me tell

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a secret. People fear solitude because they fear that everything they try so hard to keep eating

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will come out. I'm not scared. Being alone is a blessing, surely. At the end of the day, what is

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What is the point of creating a bond that will, without that, get destroyed?

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You cannot hurt your or get hurt if you don't let yourself get close to them.

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When I look around, I only see pain in their faces, the present affliction,

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but also the torments that they face and the agony to come.

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Why would I want that?

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Even if I didn't want it, I know it won't happen.

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I can sense the disgust around me.

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It's like I have some kind of infectious disease and they don't want me around.

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Somehow they know I'm not like them, they are aware of my loneliness and they hate me for it.

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I won't try to fit in where I am not wanted.

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Yet sometimes, when I realize I can't even remember what it was like to be loved,

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I invite them and the noise of the walls makes my own voice unbearable.

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I wonder if I could come back, be a part of them.

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I see them going on with their daily lives and I just barely wonder why can I have that?

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Why can't I be happy?

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Why do they, these monsters full of hate, who don't even deserve to live, get that and I don't? Why?

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So I went to the mall with some friends, with Vanessa and John, and we went to Pullenberg, and I bought like a white t-shirt with a bow, so it's like, poquettes, it's trendy.

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And I also went to Primark, and I bought a t-shirt there, and some jeans.

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Oh, what a weirdo.